This morning in Saturday Morning Prayer, Pastor Matt spoke from John 4 & it was a good reminder to check my perspective.
This morning when I got up, I felt Holy Spirit prompt me to talk about the things that were on my heart, and I think I realized that I was disappointed. Immediately, He reminded me of Kari Jobe. The Lord once told her, “You know that I can handle your disappointment, right?” I started sharing what I was disappointed over, and immediately he met me with love and reminded me of Jeremiah 31:3, “… I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.
I can’t speak for anyone else, but I know that in the midst of believing for something, I HAVE to stay in constant “check my heart” mode because I tend to get so wrapped up in praying for the need, or making sure that my level of faith is through the roof (or whatever) that I’m focused on the promise more than the One who promises.
Pastor Matt said it great concerning the father in John 4 coming on behalf of his sick son. The father believed that Jesus could heal his son, but the father didn’t [intimately] know Jesus. Sometimes we can be like that, as well. Not on purpose, but sometimes we can be so focused on what we’re believing for that we take out the intimate factor with our Father. Have you ever had a conversation with someone and they ALWAYS talk about the same thing? You’re just over there like, “Helloooo? Do you even notice that I’m here?” God wants to walk through the circumstance and build deeper relationship with us, but we have to stop looking to the circumstance, and to the One who controls it.
So, I repented of magnifying my need so much to where I couldn’t see Him. Yes, the Lord can do all of the miracles that we need, but the greatest miracle he can do is to change a heart in the middle of a circumstance. Sometimes our circumstances may not change, but our proximity to our Father will.